Tuesday, March 31, 2009

What are friends for?

  • To gate crash at your home on every birthday, getting spare cakes so that you can do more than just eat them.
  • To expect you to listen to them even when they are at their worst and you are not at your best. 
  • To turn tell you how monstrous you looked in that flouroscent shirt. "You should have instead worn the floral one! "
  • To confide in you how cute they found that girl who just passed by to be which was exactly what you were going to tell them.
  • To give you advice, free and unlimited, sometimes unnecessary.  
  • To wish you luck a million times, saying "You will be just fine" before you put yourself to a real test in this cruel world. You even get "Good Luck" surprise parties.
  • To ask you for treats on every occassion. Your birthday. Treat! You won a prize. Treat! You shaved. Treat!
  • To reinstate faith when you think you are being sucked in a black hole. "No it's ok. They won't touch your arm. They will only chop your finger"
  • To fuel your imagination. "Imagine Salma Hayek is standing right here in my bedroom" "Yeah,  and she is naked."
  • To have group therapy sessions on how scared we are of flunking in the upcoming exam, when we haven't ever got less than a first class.
  • To inform you before anyone else of their latest buy as if it is a conquest.
  • To visit your blog and then call you up to tell you how much they liked it in stead of commenting.
  • To give you wake up calls in the middle of the night when you have to burn the mid-night's oil. 
  • To take you for coffee at 3AM in the morning just because they want to have coffee.
  • To go on treks with you, no matter how underprepared you are for them.
  • To give you a crash course in a subject when you have an ocean to complete and very little time.
  • To go on drives with as many as 13 people packed in a single car. 
  • To have movie marathons with, where you end up watching as many as 5 movies in a single night despite being drunk.
  • To be the only people who you have a full right to scold.
  • To play pranks on without the fear of repurcussions. Almost. My friend once was almost about to turn me in since she thought I was her dreaded stalker.
  • To call you up and ask for "instant tips on how to start a convo with a girl you have seen on your morning walks" when standing next to her!
  • To cry without the fear of being mocked, unless its for a lost sock.
  • To be the only people who you can talk to without thinking and still appear 'wise'.
Thanks for being there. I know I will make it. 

Sunday, March 15, 2009


On one rainy day, I remember I had taken cover under the natural umbrella one of them formed. It served me well. I managed to come out, not half as soaked as I would have otherwise been. The rains in Mumbai are ruthless on its inhabitants and the trees are the only saviours.  I was indebted. 

The trinity used to stand there, majestically, at the turn down the road. I had seen them in their full glory with their brown barks and thick blanket of leaves. Many creatures lived in them - crows and sparrows, pigeons and squirrels, and many more insects and creepie-crawlies. It was a micro-habitat in itself.  

Today, it felt different. The shade the trees provided was gone. The chirping of the birds was absent. In fact there were no birds.  As I walked back home, I had hoped to find them watching over the road that leads to the hospital. But all I saw were three stubs, as if they had been prosecuted and sentenced to death - beheading was the chosen method.  

The walk didn't feel the same. What a shame! What an end to three glorious lives! 

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Music To My Ears

A good friend told me, “If you are stressed out, sing out loud.” I told her I always did, especially when I had my music on. How often I have seen random people staring at my face and presumably mumbling to themselves, “What’s wrong with this guy?” while I have been humming along my favourite tunes. Oblivious to their remarks, I enjoy living in a world of my songs. My playlist is barely 48 hours long, but I rarely mind listening to the songs on it, over and over and over again.  They can help me change my frame of mind and refocus. There is a song for every mood, a mood for every song. There are few lines that are so close to me that they deserve a mention on my blog:

 Song : Yellow / Artist : Cold Play 

"I came along

I wrote a song for you

And all the things you do

And it was called yellow


So then I took my turn

Oh all the things I've done

And it was all yellow"


Song: Carnival of Rust/ Artist: Poet of the Fall 

"It's all a game, avoiding failure, when true colors will bleed

All in the name of misbehavior and the things we don't need

I lust for after no disaster can touch, touch us anymore

And more than ever, I hope to never fall, where enough is not the same it was before


Come feed the rain...

'cause I'm thirsty for your love dancing underneath the skies of lust

Yeah, feed the rain

'cause without your love my life ain't nothing but this carnival of rust"

Song: Bring me to life / Artist: Evanescence

"All of this time I can't believe I couldn't see

Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me

I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems

Got to open my eyes to everything

Without a thought without a voice without a soul

Don't let me die here

There must be something more

Bring me to life"

 Song: Devils and Dust/ Artist: Bruce Springsteen

"I got God on my side

And I'm just trying to survive

What if what you do to survive

Kills the things you love

Fear's a powerful thing, baby

It can turn your heart black you can trust

It'll take your God filled soul

And fill it with devils and dust"

Song: How to save a life? / Artist: They Fray

"As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came."

Song : Imagine / Artist: John Lennon

"Imagine there's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one."

Song: Living Darfur / Artist: Mattafix

"There's disaster in your past 

Boundaries in your path 

What do you desire will lift you higher? 

You don't have to be extraordinary, just forgiving. 

And those who never heard your cries, 

You shall rise

And look toward the skies. 

Where others fail, you prevail in time. 

You shall rise. "

Song: Lost/ Artist: Cold Play

“You might be a big fish

In a little pond

Doesn't mean you've won

'Cause along may come

A bigger one”

Song: Say the Same/ Artist: Hoobastank

“So goodbye, my friend.

Until we meet again,

Some other day.

I know so much will change.

But looking back I can say,

I wouldn't change a day.

I hope you can say, I hope you can say

I hope you can say,

That you understand,

The only life we have,

Is here and now,

Not up in the clouds.

With every breath we can say,

It is a brand new day.

I know I can say,

The Same”

Song: Sometimes you can’t make it on your own / Artist: U2

“We fight all the time

You and I...that's alright

We're the same soul

I don't need...I don't need to hear you say

That if we weren't so alike

You'd like me a whole lot more” 

Song: Iris / Artist: Goo Goo Dolls

“And I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am”

Song: Affirmation/ Artist: Savage Garden

“I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned

I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned

I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side

I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye”

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Gran Torino

There are movies and then there are great movies - the ones in which you come out feeling different about the life you live, the world you see. You ask yourself questions which you never asked. You wonder if you already knew the answers to those questions but were not willing to accept them. Your mirage of knowing how relationships function is broken, the age barrier shatterred. You wish you can recreate that magic in your life when the chips are down. You give yourself a fighting chance, for salvation, absolvence from sins of every nature. You feel pain. You cry. You learn how to save a life. You believe. You live the moment. 

Gran Torino is not a movie, it's a fun lesson in philosophy. Clint Eastwood is both the learned teacher and the enlightened student.

PS: Thank you Mr.Iyer for recommending it. I think you should watch it too in case you haven't so far. 

Friday, March 06, 2009

The Days of My Life

  1. Wake up.
  2. Go to office.
  3. Check e-mails.
  4. Work. 
  5. Eat.
  6. Check e-mails.
  7. Work.
  8. Eat again sometimes.
  9. Work more.
  10. Return home. 
  11. Check e-mails (personal).
  12. Sleep. 
And this happens six days a week from 7AM to 11PM. Not that there is too much of work, there is too little of everything else.