Whispering Shadow

Life has more twists and turns than the most exciting of movies. And not one of us can gainsay that. Whether it is fair, is a different question. But if it was always fair, then the world would have more happiness than it could handle. Life would have become boring in utopia. The irony today is that it is this boredom which we all seek. And we are all right in doing so. Just that some times, we get the cake, other times we get the cherry. Like today morning, I knew I had done well. My belief was further strengthened by the official results. I was one of the top 2700 from a set of 270000 who took an exam. I thought I deserved a call. But they did not. I thought I will sail through, but the script was written differently. I was happy when I saw my CAT score card. 95.1, 97.37 and 96.67 percentile in the three sections and 98.91 overall. In my opinion the score was good enough for a call. But the happiness was short-lived. As I scrolled down the sheet, I had not one call from any of the s...

There is life beyond good days and bad days. And sometimes, it goes far beyond the days of mundane existence and mere achievements, days where you feel you are invincible. No person can hurt you. No thought can enter your mind. You are blank, as empty as the sands of a barren desert. Yet, you don't feel parched. You are at peace, with yourself and all the variables around you, in every wordly equation that is yet unsolved. You think of those who love you, those who have prayed for you and those who have given you luck and realise that with so much positivity surrounding you, there can be no space for a pessimism. You start believing in yourself like you never have. An aura surrounds you, like an armour that takes all the blows when you are fencing your enemy off. Your are overwhelmed by a sense of objectivity. Your mission is to defeat your only enemy - panic. Life gives you second chance, but you are worthy of it only if you have lived upto yourself in your first attempt. Your att...

It is one day to go for the mother of all exams (if you didn't know, it's CAT I am talking about), but here are a few questions I definitely am trying not to think about: How is the paper going to be tomorrow? How am I going to attempt it?  What will the paper pattern be like? What if I get through? How will I get through? Can I get through? What if I don't get through? When was the last time I said this was not a serious attempt? When was the last time I said there is always hope? What is my chance of getting lucky, when 269999 others ask for luck on the same day? Do I need luck? What if my friend gets through and I don't? What if I get through and my friend doesn't? What if the paper pattern changes next year to an online test? What if the paper is leaked? What if I forget my hall ticket at home? What if I wake up and realise it is 11:30 already? What if there is a curfew tomorrow? When was the last time I tried to not think so much?  Luckily, CAT has only five an...